3 years and still going STRONG!..

I guess it had been almost 3 years since I started this journey, (Sorry, I'm not that good with figures!) being a blogger had always given me the freedom to share thoughts, ideas or my feelings towards certain things.. You might probably questioning what actually got me doing this?..Why did I started blogging? well it all started when I started reading my friend's blogs and I saw them having so much fun sharing their life with people.. I wanted to feel the way they did and at the same time I didn't want to be left out.. So I slowly started to learn bit by bit on the patterns of blogging, how to add things on your blog and design templates etc.. The main reason I started blogging was due to the influence from friends, I might just tell you all this big things that how I was aspired to share my everyday living with people around the world..etc etc it wouldn't be an honest answer as it wasn't the root reason but it was one of those reasons on the list!.. My blog has given me the freedom to voice out my opinions, sometimes it is my sole companion whenever I'm alone..Its like we share intense chemistry cause it feels so good to write in here...I do know that my blog is not a very famous one as I'm not a celebrity, I'm just an ordinary being who would love to share my comments about things..I do know that some people don't even care having a look at my blog from the face of it..But who cares? I love what I'm doing and certainly it makes me very happy..so I'd continue doing this..I don't need to have anyone's recognition..For those who have been reading my posts and continuously supporting me all this years..Thanks Alot!...It truly matters alot to me and I appreciate every one of you..I would like to apologize if I've bored or frustrated you with any of my posts..I'm still learning and will always be...After all No one is perfect right?..=)

Today as I was driving I saw this man walking in the middle of the road holding some polystyrene container..Then somehow I had a feeling that I knew the man, he was the one who used to collect old newspapers in my primary school..whom I was frightened of back then!..I asked my friend for reassurance and she was actually surprised that I actually recognized this guy..Then she began to tell me his life story..From her I learnt that he was once an excellent student,had high hopes and big dreams..He pursued his medical degree, well that's where all the problem started..Maybe he couldn't cope with the pressure that comes in package when you take up such heavy course like medicine..so situations have resulted him to be mentally handicapped now..Somehow I adore his way of living..Though he might not be able to think like normal people do but he has the sense of responsibility and not to burden anyone by using his disability as a reason..I've seen lot of people near the place where I'm studying, where some will beg people for money or cheat people in order to get some money or even steal from people and at the end of the day using all the money to get drunk and lie on the five foot ways..its such a disgrace, I know but they call it pressures of life..Really? Pressures of life? Are you kidding me?..God has given you legs and hands, not for you to beg but for you to earn for living...Among these "carefree" people ( I don't have the best word to describe them, perhaps maybe irresponsible or even useless..I wish I could use more harsh terms here!) I've seen individuals performing on subways for us to stay entertained till the train arrives and as a token of appreciation, we award them with money..Now that's what we call earning for living, he is trying all he can to make ends meet though it might be really tough but he has dignity, integrity and self respect in himself...If at all that man had thought twice about doing Medicine and not just trying to live his parent's dreams, maybe today he could have been successful in something he would have loved doing and would not be going through all this today.. Sometimes parents have to be extra careful on what they are feeding their children, cause they might feel they are doing it the right way but you may not know what going on the child's mind...and I would like to highlight the fact that there isn't any 'right way' in parenthood..cause every child is different just like how we are..Instead of wasting your time attending parenting seminars, just try to sit down and understand your kids better..I'm not a parent but I'm just saying from a child's perspective..Well I've got it going too far!!!..haha..From a person I met on street to 'carefree' people and finally to parenthood..Three totally different topics, I've got no idea how I got them all fused right here!.. 

P/S :: About the picture..Yes, You are never too old!!...So go out there and strive for success..=)

Lesson Learnt

Today someone have pointed out to me that "I don't know how to respect others"..Let me just clear things up here..I'm someone won't think 4 times before uttering words or while conversing with someone..I just speak my mind out and expect you to listen..Sometimes the anger in me beholds and I tend to get very emotional when we're discussing very controversial issues..I always feel that I need to put my stand and need to be sure that what I'm saying is right...Maybe this can be a treat to my career as lawyers need to be calm and composed..Need to structure their arguments well before letting it out..They need to plan strategically with their words and at times they would have to conceal the truth in best way they can..For the matter of fact this is not at all good for any careers since you need to master the art of communication so that you'd gain recognition..I have always been someone who is very emotional and can be very temperamental..Sometimes I might be rude because I tend to forget with whom I'm talking to but I do know I have to change this attitude of mine so that I would not hurt anyone in future and that I won't be regretting in future due to the words that I've let out as they can't be taken back ..But at times I do feel that, there are people who act so good in front of others, they might be the goddess from heaven since everyone devote them like no one else due to the mask they wear upon their true face..They might act nice in front of you but spread gossips around behind your back..Well at least, I'm proud to say that I'm not one of such character, I respect everyone that I know though sometimes I may not be the best in portraying it..I'm trying my level best to change this attitude of mine and I'm going to watch my words from now on wards.. 

Yesterday out of sudden I decided to watch this movie "Kannathil Muthamittal" by Mani Ratnam sir..This movie was released when I was still young so I probably wouldn't have understood the gist of the story back then..It has to be noted that this movie is indeed a masterpiece..There is a reason why I choose to say so..This movie speaks about a child who was born to a Sri Lankan mother, the mother had to leave her due to the heavy responsibility she has back in motherland...she was then adopted and taken care by Indian parents..Her dad explains to her that she was adopted when she is old enough to know and it portrays how she longs to see her biological parent..Now after many years as I was watching it I could understand the deep emotions involved in a family and I would say all the casts have done a good job by bringing live to those characters on the script..I also have to highlight here the performance of  the girl who acted as 'Amutha', cause at such young age she is able to take up such a heavy role and was able to live up to the needs of the character..I probably wouldn't have been able to do that at that age..and of course all this wouldn't be possible if not for Mani Ratnam sir's brilliant script.. A.R.Rahman's music just lighted up the whole movie and my personal favourite is Oru Dheivam Thantha Poove by Chinmayee and Vellai Pookal by ARR himself.. 

After watching the movie, something in me wanted to know what really happened in Sri Lanka..Why were they subjected to such manner..So I did Google, found and learnt so many things about Tamil Eelam.. I would say the cruelty in the name of war and how such heartless people have carried out genocides.. Frankly speaking, I was angry with myself cause I weren't aware of all these happening maybe cause I was just too young..but What was everyone else in the world was doing??..day dreaming? If at all this issue was brought to light and with all the support of thousands or even millions of people worldwide, maybe we could have saved all those innocents children,women who were subjected to rape and brutal execution and all those who were hurt and couldn't even run but had to sit and watch till the bombs hit on them..some of them watched their father, mother or sisters bleed to death.. Were there any International Alarm carried out to order that country to stop conducting such act? were there any embargoes set against this country and all the trade ceased?..No I don't think so..This matter didn't get as much international  recognition like how Gaza issue got the spotlight and due to that innocent people who just wanted a place to live were let to die with no medical supply, no food nor water supply and constant bombards and shelling..and yet the people who are responsible for all this still out at large..Maybe its politically driven, I don't know or I just don't want to comment about it..but are we so selfish???...I guess the more educated we are, the more selfish we become and the only thing matters to us is,this three things  "MY family, MY money and MY life!" or maybe more, I got no clue but what I can be sure of is that it all will start with the word MY!...I would like to take a moment of silence and pray that all souls that have been lost during this war rest in peace..

La Familia

I came across this picture on Andrea Fonseka's facebook page..In case if you're wondering..she was the Miss Malaysia Universe 2004..Coming back to the topic today.. I'm someone who believe that family is not always formed by blood relationships...sometimes family can also be from people who we consider precious to us, for instance friends..Though friends are not related to us but we seem to be closer to them sometimes they're even closer than our family members..Forgot to ask you..Who do you consider as your family?..or do you actually support my definition of family?.."Family isn't always blood.Its the people in your life who want you in theirs; the ones who accept you for who you are.The ones who would so anything to see you smile & who love you no matter what."   I clearly agree with this and live by this principle..For me whoever that I consider as my family..I'd do anything for them...just anything..I don't really care what time is it, if they need any help I'll be there the very next moment..If they need a shoulder to lean on, I'd definitely be there...This is me..I'm someone who consider everyone, those who are precious to me as family..For me they are a part of me...This is me..this is how I am and I won't change myself for anything...cause I'm BEST at being me...=)

Whatever happened to me for the pass few months have made me realize that in life nothing is permanent..No matter how much you may argue with me that there are exceptions but I've come to this conclusion cause of what I've gone through and what it had thought me..Sometimes you might feel that the particular relationship you share with someone would last forever..well it could be anyone..your best friends, friends or even your partner..The people once meant the world to you..But to your disappointment there will be things that would part your ways with them..which can be very depressing..I know how exactly it feels..At times that person would never give you the reason or even disappear from your sight, not responding to your calls nor messages..You'd probably be very worried about their safety etc..it would definitely leave you to a question mark..What had happened? What did I do? We didn't even have a fight or anything and you just disappeared?..This is how you'd be questioning and thinking to yourself..Its like once you both had it all, shared the ups and downs in life..shred every bit of story that happened in your life...shared all the happiness and the sadness together..You once knew that no matter what this person would be there for you always and would tap your back and say "Its Alright, I'm here for you"...But how it feels to finally realize that all that are no more...everything is gone..The worst case scenario is that you don't even know the reason why..It kills you to bits..but the you got to realize that this is a decision that the person have chosen so you have to respect it, no matter how hard it is...You know whats best for you?...Just accept the very fact that the person as gone an if he/she wants to be back..its totally up to them..but you don't have to push it..you go ahead LIVE YOUR LIFE!..Don't get too depressed due to this and loose your life cause of some heartless people in your life..I quoted them as 'heartless' cause they didn't even think about how hurt you'd be and just left like that...So why you have to worry about them, when they don't even care??!...You just go ahead..Have fun..Enjoy life...there is so much more life is waiting to offer you..just go on and grab those..=)

P/S :: This is a note to myself too..=)

HELLOOOOO!!!

Yeash I'm Back!...Exams are over now and how shall I describe how my exam was..=P It was just fine I guess..I'm not a 'smart ass' like everyone else though people may think that I am..but I would like to highlight the fact that I'm definitely not a smartie pant!..My examination lasted for a month..it was THAT LONG!.. AS level was good and I guess I have given my level best into this..Hopefully I'd do well..Everyone is scaring me by telling A2 would be even harder and some people even have warned me about my degree..well every new phase we enter life..it would be tougher than the previous one..thats how it has been all this while right? Like how 5th Grader's examination is tougher than the exams of cute little one's in nursery...I'm pretty sure working life would be much more harder as you are engaging with real life situations not just the ones stated on papers as how we students study...What I do know is that I'm gonna accept everything thats coming on my way just like how it is entitled to..just like how He wants it to..I'm pretty sure He have got better plans for me and I'm eagerly waiting to reveal those..and Now that my exams are over and m on holidays..you might hear more from me..I just hope I don't bore you!...hahaha...Have a great day ahead people!..Lots of love from me...=)