I don't quite understand people, well maybe thats how it should be as all of them are very much different from one another..I guess I have wrote here many times about this feeling..Maybe I've never succeeded to get rid of this feeling in me..Have you ever felt such way? Like people around you are there for some certain reasons..Am I too nice to people? Sometimes I just wonder..I take care of people's feelings so well, I help them out when they're in a big trouble or down...I talk nicely to them but at the end all of them end up treating me like sh*t..Sometimes I'd just say to myself this, Do I really deserve to be threaten this way? or am I giving too much room for them to do this to me? How am I suppose to be nice and not to be hurt at the same time??! You know it had caused such a great impact on me to the extent that I'm scared to get attached to people or make friends..If can I want to just detach myself from everyone and be with myself.. Like how Buddha once said "If you make friends with yourself, you'd never be alone" and how Einstein once said that "If you want to live a happy life,tie it to a goal not to people or things", This particular Einstein's quote suits me well since I'd always love to make others happy and still doing it..Haven't learnt how to leave this attitude of mine..I've been really hurt by people's words, due to that now I'm just so afraid..I mean you be good to people, you talk to them nicely and one fine day they just throw words at you without consideration..One thing for sure I'd never be able to forget anything, its a very deep scar.. This is something I wrote long ago "Words are even sharper than SWORDS, cause they kill people even FASTER!"
© 2013 Shalini M.
