Happily Ever After??...Sometimes I really wonder whether it truly exists or not..Or its just a dream of an author, so he started including this sentence on fairy tales..Think about it, we grew up people reading to us "and they lived Happily Ever After" and accepted the fantasy that everyone who gets married would live happily every after..But what if someone comes and tell you that, it isn't the case? Sometimes I just wish I could rip all these book which has been telling us lies all this while...Of course once you're grown up you'd realize the truth..Everyone from our childhood been telling us not to lie but they've been reading to us all these lies and forced us to accept the fantasy they've built up..Yeah some may disagree with me by saying that, there are marriages which has a happy ending, but its only handful of them..I'd always pray that all the marriages have the same destiny but sadly not everyone is the same, not everyone is the "Prince Charming" or "Cinderella".. Its sad that how most of people stay married though they're unhappy just cause of the society and what people around them might think.. I just wish I could shout at that "society" and ask them to keep their mouth shut..What if this same thing happens in their own life? Would they be able to comment? Why is that we people like to gossip about others and not think how it would hurt them?.. For me I live for myself, my family and friends, they're very important for me and I don't give a shit about what others might think cause they've got no clue about what I've been through and what brought me here...Though I'm very young but I do understand about marriage..When you're getting married someone, you're accepting their flaws and all, you're promising them that no matter what, through thick and thin, you'll be with them... You'll give equal rights to each other, you'd be a good listener, you'll leave the EGO behind ( This is why most marriages fail, why can't we leave the three letter word behind if it causes so much destruction?!), You'd trust each other, you'd promise their parents that you'd try hard to be a good son or daughter in law and take a good care of their child, you'll be responsible over your mistakes and you'd try hard to defend your better half if they're in any sort of problem...I know I may sound old by writing all these cause you wouldn't expect 18 year old to write in such way..But its the truth isn't it? If everyone is willing to live up to the vows they've made, all marriages would have a happy ending..Though there maybe some little fights or misunderstandings, well its all acceptable since there is two different individuals,character or minds living under the same roof..Its just like how we used to fight with our siblings when we were young, since different people tend to have different opinion about things..Well, we just have to take it that way..=))
On 21st December, I have had list of unfortunate events, my train got delayed, couldn't take the LRT cause there was a huge que in the ticket counter, The whole KL Sentral was filled with people..When I finally decided to ask my sister to fetch me, there was a huge traffic congestion and at the end of the day I reached home at 10 pm!! If you've followed my blog from the start you would have known how I was so against to the very thought of world ending on 2012...I have already read many entries regarding world end, the ones against and the one agrees and came to my own conclusion 3 years ago..Knew that all this are just a hoax...But that not going to rate the movie 2012 a comedy..The reason why I'm saying this is cause I saw the 9gag about this..I really like the way the movie was taken and its screenplay..Hats off to the director..Well..The reason for this post isn't about commenting on the movie...Just wanted to ask you people..You're very happy that the world didn't end??!...Please do open your eyes and see the reality...Look at the world you're living in now.. Look at how "beautiful" or "peaceful" it is.. Shootings of innocent children and people, just cause one idiot is going through depression??!... Genocide in some part of the world to destruct ethnic minorities due to political reasons..Bombards and war in some countries just to prove political sovereignty??...Child abuse by their own parents, which is so sick cause for me if you don't want to have kids or you find them burdening then don't commit to such huge commitment in the first place!... Gang rapes, recently happened in India.. Like seriously?!.. If you want to have it so badly go and find a prostitute and not destroy a person's life!..Those people who saw her lying naked on the floor and didn't lend your helping hand, you are clearly heartless... This is the 'beauty' of world today..and you are here very happy about it not ending?..I don't know how is it for you people..but for me when we humans loose our humanity that's even worst than huge flood or Tsunami!...
Its 3.27 am now, during this wee hours of morning..everyone probably would be fast asleep but here I am sitting here and writing this post..Maybe the things that have crowded my mind is not allowing me to sleep so I've decided to pen it down instead..Maybe it would make me feel better or maybe not but here I am believing that it would..sitting here and writing this entry...Sometimes I wonder am I just too nice to people that they decided to use me up like my feelings doesn't matter anymore...I've been experiencing this odd feeling..This few days I've been helping out people to sort out things and suddenly the thought rose in me whether or not this person would be there when I'm in the same situation..then the past events hits me and somehow tells me that they wouldn't even care..Due to this, I've been quite moody lately or perhaps very moody.. Maybe I shouldn't take things too seriously, just let them go instead of holding tight to my bittersweet memories in the past.. After thinking for some time, the sudden feeling hit me so hard that I felt everyone around me wanted something from me and thats why they are with me..as soon as their work is done, off they go... I don't know whether its true or just merely my imagination but all these have thought me that I have to start living for myself.. I need to put myself first before anyone or anything else.. It might make me sound selfish or rather self centered but at one point in your life you just give up satisfying people or taking care of their feelings..cause everyone else won't be as nice as you do, they'll hurt you like no one else..and I'd realize its very much difficult for you to satisfy people as you don't know what they really want...No matter how much you do, you'd still hear them complaining as though you failed to carry out things properly..but what they don't know is that...you tried your best and they have got no right to tell you didn't...At this point in the post I've got no idea what I've written all this while, it just flowed out from me...I'm clearly very happy with the choices I've made in my life.. I'll never regret any of those, at that point of time it felt right and I followed my heart...In fact I'm very happy with some of the decisions I've made in my life..I'll continue helping out people but I've realized that I need to start helping myself too..=)
